Holiday Edition: Is it New Years yet?

Mood: What do you think? -_____-

Song: Christmases When You Were Mine by Taylor Swift

Ciao..

So. The Holidays. Whoever thought up the whole gift giving thing was full of crap and just wanted to find a way to ruin peoples lives. Because MAYBE for newly weds who are just so happy to be with each other or with a family with only one child things are happy, bright, merry, whatever.

Not at my house.

My parents use not getting presents as a threat. Every year, without fail, my mom declares that we won't have any holidays-- And every year, without fail, we have the holidays.*

I love Christmas. I love seeing the houses that are prettier than mine, I love decorating, I love eating the cookies, I love watching the movies, I love listening to the music. Heck, I even love the presents(I'd also love the parties if I ever got invited to any..). I do not, however, love the family part. We aren't cheerful, we don't bake cookies together, we don't go around humming carols under our breath. We're, more often than not, angry, I bake the cookies and they eat them, and nobody in my family sings.**

We have the holidays by ourselves, we don't have family or friends over. We don't even see any relatives. That's what it's like for every holiday(Thanksgiving, New Years, etc.). Last year my brother threw up all over the table at dinner... -___-

But I hope you have a "Merry Christmas" or a "Happy Hanukkah" or a "Happy Kwanzaa" or a "Happy Yule" or whatever you celebrate.. I mean, sure, whatever I get will be nice but Christmas isn't supposed to be about the presents, right? It's supposed to be about family, right? And love and peace and happiness and all that. Well, let's just say, I'd kind of rather be with someone else's family for Christmas....

And WHY is it that on those Christmas morning cartoons when the kid opens a package of underwear or socks or a toothbrush he gets all upset because it's so 'lame'? I would love to get underwear or socks or a toothbrush! I want things I need, not useless things I'll lose or never use.

Here's a picture of what my Christmas will be like!

Explanation: It's insane the whole month and you can just barely see what Christmas is about but nobody cares enough to try. Then it's new years and everything's back to normal. Which isn't much different, but it's less noticeable than at Christmas time because... Well, I don't even know why.

*I say 'holidays' because my family celebrates Christmas and Yule. Yule is just the celebration of the Winter solstice(My family's religion is some form of Paganism.) and for some reason we get presents on that day, too. Nobody else does that, just my family.. But, hey, I'm not complaining about extra stuff! That makes me sound greedy. I'm not, it's just the greedy kid inside of me. And I'm hoping to get things I need like jeans, a new coat, a new jacket, new pajamas, etc. Or money to buy all of that, anyway. On Yule we usually get three to five presents each, and on Christmas we get one plus candy, a movie, and another little present or two in our stockings.

**Maybe that's why I had a problem singing in front of people.... Also lack of support and encouragement from my family. They're not that kinds of people....

Whatever.

Arrivederci.

~Lily~

P.S. I'm sorry I'm not as happy-sounding in this post as I usually am, but I'm not in a good mood because everyone's ticked off at everyone for something. One of my brothers is mad at me for getting to have Christmas lights in my room, my mom is mad at everyone for not watching the youngest kid while she wraps/organizes presents. She didn't tell anyone specifically to watch him, she just said he needs to be watched. She should know by now that nobody will help unless they're commanded to and with the threat of losing a toy.

God, I sound like my dad. I'll be happy in my next post, I swear. Happy Holidays!